Deciding quickly but correctly vs the damage of delays or mistakes

Last night was odd. A friend’s son had a painful emergency procedure at a local Chiang Mai hospital. After midnight I was driving the friend’s wife back to the rest of their kids and sitter. Right before we got to the hotel a motorcycle with two young men cut off another motorcycle and began beating a man who had been riding it. I stopped the car and got out, unsure of how aggressively to handle the situation. Recently I have been teaching on the intersection of justice and mercy in humility before God and was keenly aware of too many variables.

Who were these guys fighting? Is this the continuation of something previous? Are there more? Is my responsibility to get involved or to stay with the lady I’m escorting back? If I step in, do I do it cautiously or decisively? Is it worth risking a knife being pulled, or even being thrown in jail if things go sour? How much danger is the guy in who is getting beaten by the other two?

I ended up walking toward them telling them to stop, but doing so much more slowly and cautiously than I historically would have done. The result was mixed. The guy getting the beating ended up with a dozen more kicks and punches than he would have received if I would have intervened violently. The attackers were able to get away when I did pull the victim from them and try and help him. By then other Thais showed up and began to help. That is when I left him with the others and finished taking the lady to her kids.

What I was left with was the uncertainty of caution. My mind kept picturing how to take out the two assailants, and how it would have protected the victim better and brought judgment to the seemingly drug deranged attackers. Then my mind swung to things going badly and being asked later: “what were you thinking?”

The intensity of the episode made me think of how my life in so many ways has been crowded, and subsequently clouded, by endless mitigating ‘what if’s. In my concern not to make a big mistake I have become vulnerable to dangerous delays which allow more damage than a quick good decision, though admittedly less than a quick poor decision.

should/can/will

An idea about how things get done:

Should = something comes to your mind and you value it, treasure it, in some way. Don't confuse this with reluctantly conceding to someone else "Yeah, I know, I should do that, but..." This is not necessarily to someone else. This is you talking convincingly to you. Hmmm, yes, all things considered, I really do think that doing that is better than not doing that. I want to do that. I really should do that! {also = Vision)

Can = this is the means by which something actually happens. I 'should' save money. If I use SKYPE instead of calling long distance, I CAN actually save money. In our discussion of the cycle of change, this can includes positive (put on) and negative (put off) things which by adding or subtracting actually make it possible to achieve progress toward what we should do; what we treasure. (also = Means)

Will = actually connecting what you treasure (what you should do/be) with what you actually "do/don't do" over time. This is 'live out'. It is also what is meant by enduring, persevering, not quitting, letting ______ keep happening. (also = Intention)

VIM = Vision Intention Means, as per Dallas Willard (should/will/can)

VRM = Vision, Resources, Momentum as per TelosXelot (Should/can/will)

The point I am focusing on is primarily the importance of knowing the reality of how people do stuff. That is a fairly basic and universal process.

The next point is focusing on the uniquely Christian aspects of "treasuring" compared to other views of what to treasure. Correspondingly, the whole cycle of following through from our treasuring becomes important.

An issue: Some Evangelical obsession with 16th century debates have at times undermined our awareness that 'sanctification', spiritual maturity, seeking first His Kingdom, etc. is not significantly different in process than any other human process of change. The fear of 'works righteousness' has lead to confusion on what to do with the un-earnable gift of salvation. Far too often we undermine maturation processes with the excuse of being loyal to grace. But grace is God's generous empowerment to receive and do what He wants us to receive and do. In other words, actively processing this Should/Can/Will in our pursuit of spiritual maturity appropriately will require an ongoing experiencing of grace in every step. God graciously illumines our understanding of what is truly worth treasuring. God gives us the strength to say no to things which undermine our treasure, he graciously provides what we need to put on to achieve the treasure and he graciously provides the power to endure over time in pursuit of that treasure.

more to follow

Choose something small, ask why SHOULD you do it? How CAN you do it? And then How WILL you do it to completion?

For everyone who intentionally overcomes, in almost any challenge, this is how it happens.

Colossians 3:1-17 NIV with highlight on you being plural (Y'all)

Colossians 3:1-17 NIV

TREASURE your position in Christ

1Since, then, Y’ALL have been raised with Christ, set Y’ALL’S hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set Y’ALL’s minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For Y’ALL died, and Y’ALL’S life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is Y’ALL’S^[a] life, appears, then Y’ALL also will appear with him in glory.

PUT OFF the old way of thinking and acting like you have to look out for #1

5Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to Y’ALL’S earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.^[b] 7Y’ALL used to walk in these ways, in the life Y’ALL once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from Y’ALL’S lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since Y’ALL have taken off Y’ALL’S old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

PUT ON the new way of belonging in lasting love

12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe Y’ALL’S-selves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances Y’ALL may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave Y’ALL. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

LIVE OUT habits of gratitude which reinforce and apply the shift in thinking and living

15Let the peace of Christ rule in Y’ALL’S hearts, since as members of one body Y’ALL were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in Y’ALL richly as Y’ALL teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as Y’ALL sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in Y’ALL’S hearts to God. 17And whatever Y’ALL do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Christ Is Your Life - Eugene Peterson's translation of Colossians 3:1-17

^1-2 So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that's where the action is. See things from his perspective.

^3-4Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you'll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ.

^5-8And that means killing off everything connected with that way of death: sexual promiscuity, impurity, lust, doing whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, and grabbing whatever attracts your fancy. That's a life shaped by things and feelings instead of by God. It's because of this kind of thing that God is about to explode in anger. It wasn't long ago that you were doing all that stuff and not knowing any better. But you know better now, so make sure it's all gone for good: bad temper, irritability, meanness, profanity, dirty talk.

^9-11Don't lie to one another. You're done with that old life. It's like a filthy set of ill-fitting clothes you've stripped off and put in the fire. Now you're dressed in a new wardrobe. Every item of your new way of life is custom-made by the Creator, with his label on it. All the old fashions are now obsolete. Words like Jewish and non-Jewish, religious and irreligious, insider and outsider, uncivilized and uncouth, slave and free, mean nothing. From now on everyone is defined by Christ, everyone is included in Christ.

^12-14So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

^15-17Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way.

another skim through Colossians

We are looking to understand how life rooted in Jesus as Lord will grow into the best possible life as we increasingly apply his wisdom and strength to get better at practical love.

How the Jesus life works, as recorded in Colossians

Chapter 1:1-8

Faith – trust in Jesus as the reference point for your life

Hope – an image of what trusting in Jesus as the reference point of your life will look like/result in

Love – the essence of how a life rooted in Jesus works (and what it is)

• V Faith is the roots
• V Hope is a dotted line sketch of a full-grown fruitful tree
• V Love is the growth actually happening season to season

Chapter 1:9-14

Paul’s vision of the growth cycle. He briefly explains the sequence of growing from a wrong view of life to a healthy view of life.

God gives spiritual understanding >We live out the understanding>That produces results (fruit)>Those results enable us to understand more

The cycle continues because God gives us the strength to keep it going.

When it works we understand and apply the difference between life outside of the Christ’s Kingdom vs. life inside Christ’s Kingdom.

Chapter 1:15-23

Christ is the Creator stepping into rebellious creation to reconcile effectively.

Chapter 1:21-2:5

The reconciliation process is very painful in that it is against the grain of a world in rebellion. However, it is worth it to endure pain for the benefit of seeing people grow up in Christ like the should be.

Chapter 2:6-15

The greatness of Christ must be understood so that you don’t settle for a copy (and end up not escaping the rebellious world).

Chapter 2:16-23

Since Christ has overcome oppressive rules and oppressive spirits, don’t get sidetracked into issues of rules and spirits; focus on Christ.

Chapter 3:1-17

Focusing on Christ works by treasuring a vision for a completed life with Christ, putting off what isn’t in accordance with that, putting on what is in accordance with that, and living it out intentionally. The essence of the challenge is to rely on the Creator (revealed in Christ) instead of relying on some form of cleverness or intensity in you or elsewhere in creation to get what you want.

Chapter 3:18-4:1

This is how your faith in Christ, with a hope of full reconciliation to your creator, works in practical relationships that give and receive appropriate love.

Chapter 4:2-18

Be aware that you are one of many people living this out personally and helping others to live it out as well.

Colossians 3 thoughts in progress

Life is experienced as an interaction between desires and satisfactions.

Understanding the relationship of desire and satisfaction is at the heart of philosophy, religion and psychology.

Very basically the biblical contention is that there are two fundamental perspectives.

Cosmos: The predominate pattern of human behavior is to notice that there are all sorts of resources in the accessible creation which can have various degrees of success in meeting desires.

Creator: The biblical exhortation is to trust that the Creator is not only the source of every good thing in creation, he is the only reliable hope of ultimate resolution of the desire/satisfaction dilemma.

Colossians makes this argument (Creator over creation) this way.

Because the people in Colossae trust in a few things (the gospel and it’s implications) they can grow to understand life better and live life better. They are told that the key is Christ. The explanation is that Christ is the Creator in creation and that he has shown that the Creator at his weakest (suffering death on the cross) is greater than the creation at it’s strongest (killing the Christ). This is demonstrated by the resurrection, which is declared ‘good news’. The ‘good news’ is that the Creator has demonstrated that trusting in the Creator over creation in this life (right here and now) is the right way to think and live, even if it seems very difficult.

The challenge is not to get distracted by the things which accompany faith in Christ (rules and experiences and such) but to constantly live in a way that is fundamentally what Jesus did: trust God to provide and to guide even when choices are very difficult.

Now, Colossians 3:1-17

1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Christ overcome the problem of death (cosmos without right relationship to God). Identification with him via trust (faith) demonstrated in baptism etc., means identification with his status. If you trust all that, then you are trusting that where he is you are. Subsequently order your thinking, your perception of reality in a way that is consistent. That way, when history concludes (your’s or the world’s, whichever comes first) you will have lived in such a way to experience that conclusion as a good and glorious things. As per the them of desire/satisfaction, your deepest desires will be gloriously satisfied when the separation from your Creator is completely removed.

So what should we do in the mean time?

5Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.[b] 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

The dismantling of the wrong way of thinking. To use gardening imagery, putting to death is pruning. You don’t allow life to flow into branches of thought and actions which do not bear good fruit. You select the branches which drain the plant of productivity and you cut them off. What are the branches of our lives which need to be pruned? There are a couple of lists, and some explanations.

The first list of branches of thinking and living in our lives is our nature in normal action without appropriate reference to God:

 πορνείαν, = Porneian = non-married sexual gratification

 ἀκαθαρσίαν = akatharsian = mixed up impulsiveness for gratification regardless of ... whatever

 πάθος = pathos = passionate drives (doing stuff "just because I really want to and that is enough justification)

 ἐπιθυμίαν κακήν = epithumian = cravings (desires running all through you)

 τὴν πλεονεξίαν = tein pleonexian = greedy scheming (finding a way to get what you want... no matter what)

These are all idolatry= not acknowledging God as the source of Good, but trying to hack into pleasure without paying for it
 
Prune off these forms of piracy. God is angry with thievery. You are tempted to be a habitual pleasure pirate but now you need to stop it.

Also you need to prune away:

 ὀργήν = orgein = angry character

 θυμόν = thumon = fury

 Κακίαν = kakian = meanness

 βλασφημίαν = blaspheimian = violent speech (fightin' words)

 αἰσχρολογίαν = aiskrologian = nasty talk

The fundamental idea is one of fending for yourself. IF God is not to be trusted, then you need to use whatever you can to get what you desire (want/need). This can be bullying, seduction, manipulation, bargaining, etc. etc. The forms vary but the idea behind them is the same: the source of satisfaction in this world is you figuring out how to get what you want/need from others in this world.

The shift from this thinking to redeemed thinking is explained:

12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Because of a covenant with God, you no longer need to be like the prodigal son. That son used his resources (inheritance) to find his way in the world. Satisfaction was temporarily found when he had more resources than apparent needs, but when the ratio changed he found himself filthy and humiliated. When he was received back by the father, as choice, holy and dearly loved, he was provided fresh clothes to represent his fresh status. For Christians that would include:

 compassion = σπλάγχνα οἰκτιρμοῦ = splayxna oiktirmou = merciful guts

 kindness = χρηστότητα = Chreistoteita = usefulness / kindness (helpful vs contrary)

 humility = ταπεινοφροσύνην = tapeinophrosumein = low mindedness (not full of yourself)

 gentleness = πρᾳότητα = praoteita = meekness (not demanding)

 patience = Μακροθυμίαν = makrothumian = great ability to undure discomfort without freaking out

How do we get to have these habits instead of the others? Essentially by calibrating our perspective relative to Christ. If we trust Christ, then we will do what he says bravely, without freaking out and grabbing (through manipulation, slander, seduction, or whatever).

A life of forgiveness, love (agape), peace (irenic character), and gratitude are fostered by collectively learning the Word, challenging one another constructively, singing about this way of thinking and living and essentially being intentional to connect God to everything you choose to think, say or do.

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In the Mean Time
 
Kill off (prune) pirated actions of pleasure stealing

" πορνείαν, = Porneian = non-married sexual gratification

" ἀκαθαρσίαν = akatharsian = mixed up impulsiveness for gratification regardless of ... whatever

" πάθος = pathos = passionate drives (don't do stuff 'just because', implying - "just because I really want to and that is enough justification so, "hey, you, get off of my cloud*" *MickJ

" ἐπιθυμίαν κακήν = epithumian = cravings (desires running all through you)

" τὴν πλεονεξίαν = tein pleonexian = greedy scheming (finding a way to get what you want... no matter what)

Colson article

CONTRA MUNDUM

When Atheists Believe

The confounding attraction of the Christian worldview.

Chuck Colson with Catherine Larson | posted 10/22/2009 10:11AM

http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2009/october/33.58.html

Prayer for new Christian fellowship

What was prayed? Something like: THANKS GOD revealed in Jesus, who is the rescuer now in charge. These folk trust Jesus and love those he has claimed because they now see that the most important treasure for them is stored in the unseen realm. They heard this truth, like so many, and are growing just like all different sorts of people who hear about the powerful generosity of God. These people heard it through a guy named Epaphras, (we love that guy) and he is the one who told us how real, and supernatural (Spirit led), their love is.

Then Paul wrote to the Colossians to tell them what he prayed:

Colossians 1:3-8 We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you, (4) since we heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love that you have for all the saints, (5) because of the hope laid up for you in heaven. Of this you have heard before in the word of the truth, the gospel, (6) which has come to you, as indeed in the whole world it is bearing fruit and growing--as it also does among you, since the day you heard it and understood the grace of God in truth, (7) just as you learned it from Epaphras our beloved fellow servant. He is a faithful minister of Christ on your behalf (8) and has made known to us your love in the Spirit.

What can we pray when we hear of a new Christian group?

Thanks God! (Not just any God, but the one revealed in Jesus as our Father). We heard about these people trusting you and caringly loving for others who trust in you. They do it because they believe that the best is protected for them in heaven. This is the same story that is happening in every nation imaginable, where real change and growth takes place. Someone actually was faithful and obedient in Christ to tell them, and they then reported about how real spiritual love is showing up in this new group.

…

Colossians

Paul is in prison and he is checking in with a new church plant. He wants to give them some encouragement and direction, but first he needs to show how he is connected with them. He will introduce himself, explain his understanding of the Good News they share in common, and then tell the church how to live life. So, the first bit: building trust with the Colossae community of believers (the church) by describing the Good News:

Colossians 1:1-4:18 Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God, and Timothy our brother, (2) To the saints and faithful brothers in Christ at Colossae: Grace to you and peace from God our Father.

(3) We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you, (4) since we heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love that you have for all the saints, (5) because of the hope laid up for you in heaven. Of this you have heard before in the word of the truth, the gospel, (6) which has come to you, as indeed in the whole world it is bearing fruit and growing--as it also does among you, since the day you heard it and understood the grace of God in truth, (7) just as you learned it from Epaphras our beloved fellow servant. He is a faithful minister of Christ on your behalf (8) and has made known to us your love in the Spirit.

Paul introduces himself, and Timothy and connects their work to the Colossians via Christ, the one who graciously gives peace with God their Father. The description of prayerful gratitude is now aimed at showing how a faith community works: hope. "…because of the hope laid up for you in heaven". A HOPE, a conviction about where GOOD is to be found, gives these people the ability to confidently trust Christ and to love others who also align with Christ. Christ solves the problem of life needing connection back with our source and our destiny. His solution not only connects us, it does so with reason to believe that what is wrong will be right (physically,relationally, spiritually) and that love is a worthwhile risk.

(9) And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, (10) so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God. (11) May you be strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy, (12) giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. (13) He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, (14) in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

 The link Paul is praying for is understanding so people can make good, active decisions which lead to an experienced awareness of God. His prayer is that God will in some way respond to requests given by people (like him) so that other people (church at Colossae) will 'get it' in relation to God, man, spirits and stuff. By 'getting it' the people will live out appropriate decisions on how to act. This will be productive in what they do and how they in turn know God better and better. To do this, there is also a need for energy not to give up doing what is good. A way has been opened, (thank God), for a life that is defined by light and not dark. Forgiveness and empowerment make it possible to live differently. This was accomplished through Christ.

 

When we say "Christ" what do we mean?

 

(15) He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. (16) For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities--all things were created through him and for him. (17) And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. (18) And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent. (19) For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, (20) and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross.

Head over creation, both physical and spiritual. He is the source (past), the purpose (future) and the sustenance (present) for everything; everything. Not only that, he is the head over the growing list of people who submit their lives to God in Christ, specifically because he leads the way in 'new creation', resurrection. All of God-ness in him and all of creation reordered to God through him and his ultimate choices and actions (sacrificialdeath).

(21) And you, who once were alienated and hostile in mind, doing evil deeds, (22) he has now reconciled in his body of flesh by his death, in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before him, (23) if indeed you continue in the faith, stable and steadfast, not shifting from the hope of the gospel that you heard, which has been proclaimed in all creation under heaven, and of which I, Paul, became a minister.

 How does this affect the readers? They used to be outsiders. God was not a meaningfully approachable reality and subsequently people were ruled by other forces in their lives. The hope, that Christ really is the solution to our failures, hurts, loneliness, and mortality; is what has the power to progressively bring about change. That is what must be focused on. That is what Paul does:

 

(24) Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in Christ's afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church, (25) of which I became a minister according to the stewardship from God that was given to me for you, to make the word of God fully known, (26) the mystery hidden for ages and generations but now revealed to his saints.

Paul is happy about his purpose, even when it brings pain and hardship, because he is carrying out the purposes Christ started with creating the community of reconciled people. By explaining things in such a way that people come to be set free in Christ and get to grow, Paul is fulfilling his purpose and destiny.

(27) To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory. (28) Him we proclaim, warning everyone and teaching everyone with all wisdom, that we may present everyone mature in Christ. (29) For this I toil, struggling with all his energy that he powerfully works within me. (2:1) For I want you to know how great a struggle I have for you and for those at Laodicea and for all who have not seen me face to face, (2) that their hearts may be encouraged, being knit together in love, to reach all the riches of full assurance of understanding and the knowledge of God's mystery, which is Christ, (3) in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.

(4) I say this in order that no one may delude you with plausible arguments. (5) For though I am absent in body, yet I am with you in spirit, rejoicing to see your good order and the firmness of your faith in Christ.

Paul really wants these people, and others connected to them, to trust him so he can help them grow up in their faith. That is everything to Paul. He is convinced that all the good available to these people is ultimately found in Christ. He also is concerned that they will be fooled by poor substitutes; ideas which seem to make sense but aren't real and won't satisfy. He is glad they seem to be on course.

So what have we seen so far? Paul says that he has an appropriate place in the life of the Colossian people following Christ because he was sent by Christ. He now has information for them to understand that there is no way to overestimate the significance of Christ; he is everything. He recounts the story of what Christ has done, including how Paul is now sent to help explain things, for the following reasons:

 
 

(6) Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him, (7) rooted and built up in him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving. (8) See to it that no one takes you captive by philosophy and empty deceit, according to human tradition, according to the elemental spirits of the world, and not according to Christ.

(9) For in him the whole fullness of deity dwells bodily, (10) and you have been filled in him, who is the head of all rule and authority.

(11) In him also you were circumcised with a circumcision made without hands, by putting off the body of the flesh, by the circumcision of Christ, (12) having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through faith in the powerful working of God, who raised him from the dead.

(13) And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, (14) by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross.

(15) He disarmed the rulers and authorities and put them to open shame, by triumphing over them in him.

Receiving Christ means believing that he is the one to reconcile Heaven and Earth, including us. Other efforts at making sense (or avoiding) heaven and earth reconciliation issues (what's the purpose of life,etc.) are dangerously wrong. Why? Because Christ is God revealed. He is also the fulfilment of the long story of Promise given through the Jews. Since He is 'all that' and we are 'in him' we are alive in acceptance, peace, shalom with God. Not only that, but he details that being 'in Christ' also means we don't need to fear religious rules or bullying by spirits. 

 

(16) Therefore let no one pass judgment on you in questions of food and drink, or with regard to a festival or a new moon or a Sabbath. (17) These are a shadow of the things to come, but the substance belongs to Christ. (18) Let no one disqualify you, insisting on asceticism and worship of angels, going on in detail about visions, puffed up without reason by his sensuous mind, (19) and not holding fast to the Head, from whom the whole body, nourished and knit together through its joints and ligaments, grows with a growth that is from God. (20) If with Christ you died to the elemental spirits of the world, why, as if you were still alive in the world, do you submit to regulations-- (21) "Do not handle, Do not taste, Do not touch" (22) (referring to things that all perish as they are used)--according to human precepts and teachings? (23) These have indeed an appearance of wisdom in promoting self-made religion and asceticism and severity to the body, but they are of no value in stopping the indulgence of the flesh.

 If we understand what we have in Christ, we don't need to get sidetracked with weird rules or weird stories of the supernatural. Besides, they don't work in our battle against directing our body to submit appropriately to our will.

 

(3:1) If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. (2) Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. (3) For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. (4) When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

This is the key bit of advice Paul has been trying to communicate. Shifting from whatever one used to trust in, to trusting in God revealed in Christ, means that life is totally defined by Christ. By realizing this and focusing on this makes all the difference. Life=Christ eventually, our relationship with Christ should = ife now.

(5) Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. (6) On account of these the wrath of God is coming. (7) In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. (8) But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. (9) Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices (10) and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. (11) Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all.

 On the other hand, that which is against Christ, pursuit of satisfaction without real reconciliation with God, is idolatry; worshipping creation instead of Creator. This is THE essential problem with the cosmic order. Creation rebelling against Creator. The Self in us does whatever it can to get what it wants. This is the problem. One wrong begets another and so on. The decision for Christ is supposed to be against selfishness. That is the biggest challenge, practically speaking, in daily living. That is also why we look at people, ourselves included, based on the groups they belong to. The challenge is realigning our identity relative to God first, not our earthly culture or any other lesser identity.

 

(12) Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, (13) bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. (14) And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. (15) And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. (16) Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. (17) And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

What we should be actively investing in is a way of life that is restrained by mercy and forgiveness and empowered by love. This is what we receive in Christ and accordingly what we should extend from being in Christ. Again, the investment of understanding 'what is' guides us in know 'what to do'. Here it is unity from the heart with gratitude, informed by the word of God shared in expressive ways so that everything we all do is consistent with Christ. What does that look like? Examples are given:

 
 

(18) Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord.

(19) Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them.

(20) Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.

(21) Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged.

(22) Slaves, obey in everything those who are your earthly masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord. (23) Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, (24) knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ. (25) For the wrongdoer will be paid back for the wrong he has done, and there is no partiality.

(4:1) Masters, treat your slaves justly and fairly, knowing that you also have a Master in heaven.

(2) Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving. (3) At the same time, pray also for us, that God may open to us a door for the word, to declare the mystery of Christ, on account of which I am in prison-- (4) that I may make it clear, which is how I ought to speak.

(5) Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time.

(6) Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person.

 The idea, again, is that the 'mystery' is everything. Understanding it and sharing it, in deed and word, is what we should be about. That is exactly what is happening with… all the people mentioned below.

 

(7) Tychicus will tell you all about my activities. He is a beloved brother and faithful minister and fellow servant in the Lord. (8) I have sent him to you for this very purpose, that you may know how we are and that he may encourage your hearts, (9) and with him Onesimus, our faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They will tell you of everything that has taken place here. (10) Aristarchus my fellow prisoner greets you, and Mark the cousin of Barnabas (concerning whom you have received instructions--if he comes to you, welcome him), (11) and Jesus who is called Justus. These are the only men of the circumcision among my fellow workers for the kingdom of God, and they have been a comfort to me. (12) Epaphras, who is one of you, a servant of Christ Jesus, greets you, always struggling on your behalf in his prayers, that you may stand mature and fully assured in all the will of God. (13) For I bear him witness that he has worked hard for you and for those in Laodicea and in Hierapolis. (14) Luke the beloved physician greets you, as does Demas. (15) Give my greetings to the brothers at Laodicea, and to Nympha and the church in her house. (16) And when this letter has been read among you, have it also read in the church of the Laodiceans; and see that you also read the letter from Laodicea. (17) And say to Archippus, "See that you fulfill the ministry that you have received in the Lord." (18) I, Paul, write this greeting with my own hand. Remember my chains. Grace be with you.

Summation? Creation trying to satisfy itself is what is wrong. We don't naturally understand that. We generally realize the problem with selfish living and indulgence, we just can't seem to figure out how to move beyond it. We try different rules and secret knowledge and such. We also try grouping people as 'good' vs 'bad' along ethnic or economic lines. This doesn't work. We still end up grabbing and struggling to get what we want or need and can't figure out what is wrong.

What we need is real peace with our real creator. This is done by our creator doing for us what we could not do. As a human he suffered the curse of human rebellion but did it with loyalty. That is the massive great mystery, the same one that stumps the smart people and rings true to the humble people. Somehow God fixed man's wrong by suffering man's wrong and extending God's right. That is Christ.

If that is true, that is everything to us. Everything we interact with us ultimately defined by Christ (God in man reconciling creation to its proper order and goodness). So, our thinking should be restructured away from the common way and toward the peculiar Way. That practically means doing right regardless of what we seem to miss out on or get mistreated for. It means doing that right with confidence that is where freedom is found. Lot's of people, including those listed in the letter, and loads of people since then, really do reorder their lives around Christ.

Should I?

How I became a Jesus follower...

TUESDAY, DECEMBER 11, 2007

Ken’s curiosity about “the story of what moments or events led you to Christianity”

Ken is one of those friends you make in life that just sticks. I haven’t heard anything from Ken (or him from me) since we were marines in the ‘80s. He is now in New Mexico. We recently reconnected via the web and were interested in who each of us have become in the last couple of decades. I sent this blog address and a brief description of life with Karla (http://www.marinekar.blogspot.com/) in reply. He responded with starting his own blog http://theluskreport.com/ . He also shared that he was “curious about the story of what moments or events led you to Christianity”. Friends are awesome. No fears, just ask. Ok, friend, here is the straight up account as I remember it. I will write it in a series to keep it in short, readable bits.

It starts with a simple observation. Life hurts. It hurts because we sense it should be beautiful and wonderful, and in fleeting moments it is more beautiful than we can describe. But those moments only make the other moments, moments of frustration, misunderstanding, emotional and physical pain, tedium, anxiety and general dissatisfaction so much more painful. Why do we have such a longing for beauty and such a hard time satisfying that longing?

This question, along with many others, set me searching. Ken, when you met me I was testing a possible answer. “We long for beauty because we were gullible to stories told by wishful thinking people.” I went into the USMC in part because I believed life had no meaning and nothing really mattered. Beauty had ceased to be my hope. I was willing to just try living on adrenaline. It didn’t work. The question of beauty and belonging would not leave me alone.

Part 2 to follow…

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 12, 2007

Ken’s Q2 – the Man

So, Ken, the story brought me to Spain. I lived for adrenaline, like partying in general, running with the bulls in Arcos, getting in bust ups with CBs at El Rancho’s. When there was no adrenaline I used cynicism and sarcasm to hold me over to the next fix. Occasionally it made for great stories; some quite funny if the people in them would have just been cartoon characters. Too often it was just lumpy and unsettled. I don’t mean to betray the past; I just can’t forget the toxic side of it all.

1985 in Israel things started changing. There were personal things that were my fault but also my pain. There were also events that made me more aware than ever. We were going to the sigint for a hostage rescue. While deployed the Israelis hit the PLO in Tunis with a surprise air raid. That made things tenser. During that time I was able to travel down from Haifa (Mt. Carmel) to visit Bethlehem, Jerusalem, the Dead Sea, Jordan River and more. The whole Bible shifted in my awareness. Suddenly the question was not about religious people I had met; it was about Jesus the man. Even if the Christians were wrong about who he was, he still was somebody. Who was he? Why was such a poor, unimpressively educated, politically dodgy character such a big deal so long after his death? That got me willing to learn about the man.

FRIDAY, DECEMBER 14, 2007

Ken’s Q3 – the messengers

Recap:

KenQ1 – atheism did not account for the craving for beauty and meaning

KenQ2 – being in Israel got me thinking: Who was this man Jesus, really?

Now, the messengers to me were quite diverse. Do you remember Deon Stauffer? He was big as a tank and gentle as kitten. He used to talk with people about God and all during mid watches. I loved to give him a hard time and ask him complicated questions I had developed back at Catholic school. He would just smile real easy and say something like “Russell, that’s a tough question. I don’t really know how to answer it right now. But I do know this, Jesus has meant everything to me and he loves you.” That was frustrating, and a little uncomfortable. I didn’t let on that it affected me, but it did. It kind of rattled around inside me, but I worked hard to ignore it and get back to the Cruzcampo.

As I was getting out of the Corps I had a couple of weeks leave so I took off for Amsterdam. Karla arranged to meet me up there a bit later, so I just kind of wandered around enjoying the improved beer. It got weird, though. Everywhere I went people stopped me to talk about Jesus: rednecks from Arkansas, Asians, African; even people from places that don’t start with “A”. I tried to ignore them, pretended I couldn’t speak English, but they were everywhere, even singing on the tram cars! I later found out that it was the Billy Graham world evangelism conference and I was one of gobs of people with encounters like that.

Then there was Greg. I got back to Texas and saw him right after he graduated with a degree in anthropology. He talked about going to church and I couldn’t believe it. He was a black belt in some really hardcore off brand Japanese martial arts, wore clothes like an Arapaho and played guitar in a surf-punk band downtown. Didn’t seem like a church guy. I challenged him as a scientist (anthropology degree and all) about Noah’s ark and all that stuff. Surely he couldn’t be serious. But he was. He basically said he had some good answers but to those questions, but he had a better question. What should be done with Jesus? Well, that depends, what does Jesus really mean?

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 19, 2007

Ken’s Q4 – the message

Ok Ken, sorry for the delay. I am traveling in China right now, but that’s not what is holding me up in answering your question about how I became a Christian on mission. The problem is that I became more conscience of the fact that I am speaking through you to a variety of audiences. I imagine you knew that since I am using a blog instead of e-mail. The point is supposed to be to have a greater responsibility of integrity by being public and open. Actually, that is the cause of the delay.

The simple answer of the message is in fact Jesus. Not that helpful of a statement by itself, I agree. Let me expand. Life felt like (and still does frequently) a nauseating crush between the Ideal and the Real. I want to live in beauty, hope, nobility, fascination, energy, joy, etc. That would be the ideal. Reality? I eat more than my body needs. I get confused but hide it by being more assertive (or just withdraw). I have to make a living. There is traffic. My body is moving toward death and my mind can’t quite figure that out. The Ideal and the Real intersect, but not in satisfying ways. The message I locked onto was that in immediate and ultimate ways Jesus is the hope for bringing the Ideal and the Real together. In him Heaven and Earth, Justice and Mercy and all things real and wonderful meet and arrive at shalom.

I wish that cleared everything up J! So, why not just spell it out? Religious complexity and social complexity. Some ‘insiders’, fellow Christians, are full-time quality control freaks (I am a recovering one). If I say part of the message, but not in the right words, proportion etc., they will lose it. Sorry religious control freak friends! But the social complexity is the cliff on the other side of the road. If I am clear and say what I really believe, that Jesus is uniquely the Lord that integrates the Ideal and the Real in legitimate ways, my out of control stay broad control freak friends will lose it. Fact is I hold to a narrow road. But, here goes.

Starting point: We were created by a Creator to be in the Creator’s image: creative. That is why we love art, or if we are unable to love art directly, we love sports. Sports are an accessible form of art. The creativity of motion, expression, drive etc. excite us. Why? We are created by a Creator.

Enter the problem: But nothing is ever enough. Beauty and wonder excite us but fear and irritations incessantly invade us. Some would deny this, but hey, read your e-mail again, anyone. We all have struggles in relationship (giving and receiving appropriate love) and in general well being (money, health, etc.). The creation is broken. We are broken. We need help.

Intro of solution: Religion is the basic old story of frightened humanity looking for hope and escape. As prosperity and sophistication developed thinkers arrogantly deride that fact. Western positivism and and scientific/economic confidence has led us to a world of Realism that guts the hope of any Ideal. “Get REAL” ends up ringing in my ears as: there is no Ideal. But what if we are frightened and really do need hope? Moreover, what if there really is a way of hope that provides escape from despair and entrance into wholeness? Well, that would make sense out of our (humanity’s) chronic striving for spirituality. But how do we know which solution is a solution and not just wishful thinking? What I came to pay attention to was the idea of the prophets of old.

The Hebrew prophets stand out among spiritualists. As one who has lived in the far East for over a decade, I have to say that most prophets outside of the Hebrews are more Ideal than Real. Kongzi (Confucius) is the exception but he was all about pragmatism with no transcendent Ideal to offer, by his own admission. No offense to Hindu friends intended but the essence of their thought is that the Real is in fact Not-Real. Everything we struggle with, mucked up relationships and irregular health and well being, they are all an illusion according to Hindu based thought. Hmmm. I don’t see an integration of Ideal and Real, I see the Ideal smothering the Real.

The solution revealed: The Hebrew prophets point to the need for life to work and that the answer will come in a man. This man will show how life works and pronounce judgment on what is broken and salvation (rescue) on what was intended to be. The message I got hooked on was that Jesus was/is that Man. He was so much an integration of the Ideal (Kingdom of Heaven) and the Real (the creation) that he even blew the minds of those waiting for him. He was tricky. He showed power and grace in ways that were so very other to what spiritualists often went on about and he did it with people tangled in very immediate, real problems: insanity, sickness, chronic bad choices and more. All the while dealing with individuals Jesus proclaimed a view of how life should be shifted back to understanding that the Creator never left the creation, the creation has gone blind and worships among itself as if the Creator were absent. Jesus’ message: Change your view of reality, God is actually in charge here and now. He developed that message with what you may have heard more often.

The solution executed: Jesus proclaimed the victory of the Ideal Reality over the less-than-ideal realities of this world. That is the cross and beyond. Here is how it works. Broadly, religion (the priests who conspired to kill Jesus) and politics (the Empire who expediently gave Jesus a dose of reality) were confronted head on. Jesus asserted that he was the Ideal (contra religious control systems, Hebrew or other) and that he was the Real (contra human efforts to control this life). Familiar saying of Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the life. The religious (human effort at controlling the ideal) and the political (human effort and controlling the real) set to prove him wrong. They humiliated him, tortured him and killed him. The cross was the human rejection of Jesus as the hope of the Ideal and Real.

Now, let me make sure and get this in. I have rebelled against the True Ideal and the Genuine Real by being foolish. That’s what sin is; being spiritually stupid and mean. I have made fun of people who needed kindness. I have grabbed for what was not mine. I have shut myself off where I should not and imposed myself where I should not. I have done nice things, and I’m certainly not the worst guy to ever live, not even close. That’s not the question for me, though. My question was: How can I enter into the Hope if I am always undermining the Hope by my selfishness? The short answer: Jesus not only did the macro-thing, he was also extremely personal. What I came to understand from the Scriptures was that he died with my foolishness on his soul and received the just punishment for my abuse of the heart, mind, soul and body the Creator entrusted me with. Translation: Jesus died for my sins.

The Ideal is Real: Dead Jesus meant that even his followers needed to try and find another hope (or just give into despair or delusion). But Jesus stunned everyone by showing the he was the Ideal and that he was Real. He came back from the dead, not in some ghostly way. He walked, talked, ate and made it clear: we have not been crazy to dream that there is an Ideal that could overtake our Real. There is HOPE. Jesus told his disciples: It has begun. Now carry it forward to others. Relive the story of the Ideal invading the Real by being vulnerable, rejected, but amazingly victorious in actual (real) success of hope. That’s the missionary thing. Talk with people about the Ideal/Real question and explain how I believe Jesus is the answer to that question with words, yes, but most importantly with reenactment of the way of love over selfishness in the Name of the Creator.

The Real will be Ideal: Where does it end? I used to have a view pretty much like the famous/infamous “Left Behind” series. I don’t anymore; too much speculation. I believe that Heaven (the Ideal, the reign of the Creator) comes to earth (the Real, the visible creation) and things will work better than even our wildest spiritual gurus have imagined. I believe that Jesus is the way to that reality (and will be revealed in his own time) and that he is the Lord of that Ideal Reality, the Kingdom of the Heavens right here among us. Not so sure about all the details but sure enough to invest my life in that direction.

That is my effort at explaining the message this morning. Lots of room for clarifying; so feel free to ask, add, challenge etc. (on the blog or in e-mail: russellm@pobox.com).

May the Shalom of the Ideal, the God the Hebrew prophets promised, be yours in Christ!

TUESDAY, JANUARY 01, 2008

Ken’s Q 5 – the Mission

That is my account of how I became a Christ follower, and a bit about what I understand his message to be. The final part of your question was regarding me being missionary about my faith. I am on a mission, but I don’t know as much about it as I wish I did.

When we started off signing up for the Marine Corps we were converts to the Marine way. We were hooked on the idea of being the best, the toughest and so on. I remember showing up in Rota and being hit with cynical Marines. The dream and the reality weren’t working out so well for quite a few. To some degree I became like that. I enjoyed being the short-timer with the stick of dog tags at the end of my term reminding the retention NCO that not all of us were buying into the whole story: once around the block was enough.

For many in the US Christianity has been like that. It may have been a broad part of cultural understanding, or even a very strong part of childhood. And then, somewhere along the way, the vision lost its allure and we turned our backs on finding any meaning and fulfillment down that road. To some extent that happened to me very early (13). But, as I shared, I really caught the vision for Christ in a way I had never previously understood when I was 21. That vision has been matured, even battered a bit, but it has strengthened through adversity. I am more convinced than ever that God revealed in Christ is the answer to the mystery of life.

Since I want to live out the mystery of my life well, I keep plunging forward in decisive times, plodding forward in others. I have not maxed out the depths of wisdom, beauty, justice, mercy and hope found in the life of Jesus yet. So, part of my mission is to live in such a way as to learn and grow more. That is usually through service.

What service do I have to offer? My specialty is in asking the fundamental questions about life:

Where did we come from? – origins

Why are we here? – purpose

Where are we going? – destiny and the afterlife

How can we know? – epistemology

I find that there are people everywhere who are either asking these questions or looking for questions like these to ask. I listen to what they have discovered and I tell them what I have discovered. I offer my understanding of the answers to these questions. When people want to learn more about the answers as I see them, I train them in reading Scripture and at reading their life and the world in which they live. I invite them to journey with me and others who see Jesus as the Hope worthy of our full confidence.

Practically that has meant forming small communities. In Dallas I formed a church for Spanish speakers who were trying to get a better life. We shared life together. When in need we shared food, found work together, had celebrations, prayed, learned and lived. The same happened when I moved to North Carolina for graduate studies; this time with migrant workers. I came to Asia and did similar things with communities without access to the way of life in Christ. We have seen a decade’s worth of changed lives as people have learned Christ’s way of love and peace, the Shalom of contentment through serving others.

Now my kids are growing up and I am looking at the world and seeking to see my place in it. The common phenomenon of aging is happening to me like it happens to most: the more I learn the more I realize how much I don’t know. I am still on a mission. I want to know Christ and do that by seeking to live more and more like him. I want to be appropriately loving toward God and people, and I am prayerfully considering how to do that next. As I discover what is next I will let you know.

Bad thinking a tempting excuse for not thinking

I have a friend who is a Mormon leader. He is a good guy. But I have to admit, it pains me that anyone would take Joseph Smith seriously. It seems so strikingly obvious that the guy was delusional. Whether it is the pre-vision treasure stories, or the

The LOVE passage and the Story

The yearning for love being lived out wisely is repeated often at weddings:

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

But the Story helps explains why it

is only a partially successful experience:

1 Corinthians 13:9-13

9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part; 10 but when the perfect (teleion/complete) comes, the partial will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Column 1 = love focused. God is love, creates man in his image, and creation is good.

Column 2 = the loving order is broken through rebellion and creation stands between humanity and the Creator.

Column 3 = the Creator demonstrates his love in Christ suffering death, and in the victory of the resurrection.

Column 4 = humanity still only sees God incompletely and indirectly. We have spiritual gifts to compensate for our separation, but they only exist until the separation is over.

Column 5 = love restored and matured; completed; made perfect.

We are created for love, to give and receive it wisely. We can and should love, but we cannot do it directly and completely like we sense wee should. We, and our world, is out of order. Love is out of alignment and struggles to drive a straight course. Spiritual gifts can help us in our efforts, but ultimately we need a complete overhaul: a re-ordering of the cosmos in relation to the Creator.

That is what we do in church (help one another to keep realigning toward God and the genuineness of Love) and to invite others in to understand the urge for love and the hope that it can be done.

the tale from gethsemene *(tentative title)

you came to me in an eclipsed world

where the memory of the sun

still burnt but faded

turned under the weight of years

into a fantastic thing, a child tale

a dream talk and a fool's hope

you came in the greys of the day

like a neighbor who has been traveling

far beyond the arm of the familiar

and so I recognized you and did not

for behind the face of the next door over

beat the strangeness and it was hungry

for me and i for it

but afraid because it was so strong

and burnt in your eyes like a passion

it flooded your skin and arced through your movements

and the tastes of it i found

in the words from your tongue

were sweet and bitter

stinging my tongue with its bristling courage

and soothing it again in its glow

and how hungry i was for it

for the whole from which your words flowed

i could be content no more with the fruit

but must have the seed myself

you were so hungry to give it

that once reaching out my hand you took it

and carried me across the grey streets

up the grey mountains along the grey streams

i was not tired carried as i was

and upon the mountaintop you set me down

i was crying for the hunger

the need you had awakened in me

you stood tall upon the mountain top

and carful as Atlas beneath the earth

spread your arms wide and cried out

and the sun came bursting through

an explosive wave that struck like a shout

sweeping through me and carrying me away

lighting me up through my skin

you gave me the world as it should be

as it once was

i have tasted this love and it is good

-HMM